I'm feeling cynical today, I guess... These past few days I have come to realize how attached I am to people... How stupid that is and how I am just setting myself up for pain and heart-ache. Now I'm not saying that just because you have terrible luck with the opposite or same sex depending on your persuasion, is a reason to never love again or repress/hide your feelings. I'm just advising you to be realistic. Don't fall in love.
Have best friends. Someone you can stay up to 2 in the morning with. Someone who can sit with your parents and have a conversation with them about something other then the weather. Someone who you can break the rules with. If you guys wanna make-out too then that's cool. Just be careful of yourself, you're heart can be as fragile as glass and you can lie about how it doesn't hurt all you like, you're not fooling me, and you're not fooling yourself. Sadness can be self-inflicted, don't let yourself. Don't be afraid to be selfish about it. You don't need to feel bad about your feelings. Put yourself first, if someone is treating you like crap, then get out of there. Take a good hard look at your self esteem and don't settle. Don't you dare settle because you deserve the best and you deserve happiness. Sadness can be inflicted, don't let others.
I'm a big believer in romance, I want huge ridiculous gestures and someone to look at me the way Leonardo Di Caprio looks at Claire Danes. Blah Blah Blah... I just have to accept that, that doesn't really exist in high school... Not for people like me. But that's okay... It's not something to dwell on or be upset about. It's something to look forward to. I've met a few lovely boys in my time at high school, gorgeous ones who I felt deeply for... Some I left and that broke my heart and some left me and that broke my heart too. Some were harder to get over then others. I've made mistakes, I've done stupid things, I've hurt people I haven't meant to but that is in the past now. I've apologized and I'm working towards not making those mistakes again and sharing my experiences so that others don't make the same mistakes as me. You are more likely to learn from doing something wrong then doing something right.
Never belittle yourself. You're not small, you're beautiful.
Good luck everyone
-We are golden
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